The past two days have been an extremely difficult over in my neck of the woods. This will be an extremely personal post and a little bit of a departure from my typical posts but it's my blog and I'll share if I want to. :) On Tuesday night I shut down my beloved Macbook because it was locking up. Well that would be the last time that it would boot. . I tried to restart my computer but it would only make it to the gray Apple screen. I was frantic to say the least. My Macbook is only one year old coming up on the 28th of November. My husband just told me to relax and come back to it tomorrow. I was beside myself. Just a few days before I left for Napa I reminded myself that I needed to do a backup when I returned, well when I returned would be too late! Why does it always happen that way?
After spending 2 hours at the "Genius Bar" in the Apple store fighting back tears, I left my Macbook at the Apple hospital hoping and praying that my data would be able to be recovered. Soon the call would come.... we've replaced your hard drive but we couldn't move any of your data over! The bomb dropped! Why oh why hadn't I backed up my data! I have a years worth of SED data including business documents, designs, portfolio pictures... EVERYTHING. In addition to that, all of the software needs to be reinstalled. GREAT..NOT!!! What about all of those design elements and fonts that I have purchased? I felt like the carpet had been pulled from underneath me. Everything that I have poured my heart into this past year was gone! Just when I thought I was getting into a routine....BAM! The sadness was immeasurable of how much I feel like I've lost. One day I will share the story of how and when I started SED, it may then make sense. I thought about the episode of Sex and the City when Carrie's motherboard dies and she feels as though "her life" was on that machine. UGH! Why oh why hadn't I backed up!
So in tears my husband wraps his arms around me and tells me not to worry, it will be ok. I call my sister and she says, "Ebony, you know what, everything you lost YOU created! Not anyone else. YOU! You are talented, you created those things and you can do them AGAIN. Don't be discouraged! You are amazing! So let's turn this into a wonderful opportunity!" Of course that made me cry MORE but I thought, she's right! Those designs came from MY head, I put ink to paper and made them come to creation and I know that I can do it again. Sometimes you just have to restart and come back bigger and better! Thank goodness I had already closed my books for the rest of the year (silver lining). So, that's my goal....to be bigger and BETTER! It's a tough pill to swallow but who knows what is in store for me, I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. There is still a chance that the files can be recovered from a disk saving company but in the meantime I'm focused on making Sparkling Events & Designs, LLC. even better! So watch out!
Just remember, sometimes it's ok to restart! and....I'll be backing up EVERY week from here on out! :)
Dare to Dream!